think of me as just your fan who remembers every dress you ever wore

tabisee @ 2009-03-23T01:31:00

2009-03-23T05:32:47Z

NEW JOURNAL.

i'm sick of this one.
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add if you wanna

tabisee @ 2009-03-10T01:37:00

2009-03-10T05:50:19Z

Destiny number: 86 / 5
Life Path number: 60 / 6
Physical Plane: 1
Mental Plane: 7
Emotional Plane: 6
Intuitive Plane: 5
Personality number: 62 / 8
Soul Urge number: 24 / 6

The influence of your Day of Birth;
You were born on the 22nd of the month, which makes your birth number 4. You have a double number, which is known as a Master Number in numerology. This means that for you aspects normally experienced with your birth number are doubly intense.

On the positive side, this means that you're twice as sensitive as the average woman and that you're capable of some truly awe-inspiring accomplishments.

Think about it -- you share the same birthday as Bill Blass, Dianne Feinstein, Robert Dole, Billie Jean King and Lady Bird Johnson. All these people focussed hard on their life goals, and have been literally twice blessed!

Your Destiny number;
Enthusiastic, extroverted, enticing...

I'll bet these words describe you perfectly. To you, life is one long non-conformist adventure. You put all your desires and goals into one thought-FREEDOM!

The reason that you're attracted to an unconventional lifestyle is that you're under the influence of a 5 Destiny. Women with this Destiny tend to ignore the status quo and go merrily on their own adventures down the road of life. Your life isn't restricted to an armchair at home, my friend. You want to do and explore everything.

YOUR DESTINY;
In order to fulfill your destiny, it's important to accept that there are certain things you must be, do, and accomplish in your life. As a woman with a 5 Destiny, you are here to break up tradition and expand your personal horizons.

Your Life Path's influence;
Responsible...nurturing...a woman who keeps calm in a crisis while everyone else is panicking and who is willing to take on other's problems...

If this is how people describe you, there's a reason for that! You are under the influence of the #6 Lifepath. Women who travel on this particular Lifepath are considerate, loving, generous and, as I said before, are on this planet to be RESPONSIBLE.

Your Intuitive Plane;
I'm sure you're familiar with the expression "I feel it in my bones," and in your case, it could literally be true. Your intuition is so strong that you often FEEL it expressed through your body. That's why I strongly advise you to pay particular attention to any unusual physical symptoms. These could be important clues to what's happening on the inside.

Do you often like to say "no," just because everyone else is saying "yes?" Or perhaps time and again you find you're the ONLY one in a group holding a particular point of view. It's difficult to say exactly, but you may well consider yourself to be a free thinker.

Some stay busy out of a specific need to achieve something. You, on the other hand, simply can't stand the idea of having nothing to do, and make sure you don't find yourself in that kind of fix. In other words, you may engage in many projects to avoid the terrifying possibility of becoming bored.

Your Personality number - how others see you;
What a powerful, confident and assertive woman you appear to be. You're ALWAYS attracting positions of authority and leadership because others know that they can trust you to do the right thing.

The reason for your aura of power and competence is that you're under the influence of an 8 Outer Personality. I typically see people with this Outer Personality at the helm of major corporations. Others are leaders of their communities. With this personality, even if you don't FEEL like a leader on the inside, you sure do ACT like one.

This strong presence that you project can draw people to you like a magnet.

Your Soul Urge influence - what truly makes you happy;

What a marvel you are!
Generous and caring, responsible, loving and affectionate and one heck of an all-around nice woman - that's YOU deep down, with a lot more added for good measure.

Your natural sweetness results from your 6 Soul Urge. You're loyal to those you love, and are a firm believer in family values. No wonder you're probably well-respected in your family and community.

Your main goal in life is to feel useful. You're always there to lend a helping hand with a project or to take responsibility in any situation where assistance is needed. In fact, your desire to be useful could bring responsibility right to your front door, whether you want it there or not (but deep down, you want it, right?)

You also crave approval and affection..

the truth is... he's just not that into you.

2009-03-04T07:04:17Z

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope." -He's Just Not That Into You

tabisee @ 2009-02-22T00:04:00

2009-02-22T05:05:21Z

"Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.

An you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.

And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about."

tabisee @ 2008-12-06T02:17:00

2008-12-06T07:18:28Z

"There are some fish that cannot be caught. It's not that they're faster or stronger than the other fish. They're just touched by something extra special. Call it luck. Call it grace. One such fish was The Beast. By the time I was born, he was already a legend. He'd take more hundred-dollar lures than any fish in Alabama. Some said that fish was the ghost of Henry Walls, a thief who'd drowned in the river 60 years before. Others claimed he was a lesser dinosaur, left over from the Cretaceous period. I didn't put any stock into such speculation or superstition. All I knew was I'd been trying to catch that fish since I was a boy no bigger than you. And on the day you were born, that was the day I finally caught him. Now I'd tried everything on it: worms, lures, peanut butter, peanut butter-and-cheese. But on that day I had a revelation: if that fish was the ghost of a thief, the usual bait wasn't going to work. I would have to use something he truly desired. I tied my ring to the strongest line they made -- strong enough to hold up a bridge, they said, if just for a few inutes -- and I cast it upriver. The Beast jumped up and grabbed it before the ring even hit the water. And just as fast, he snapped clean through that line. You can see my predicament. My wedding ring, the symbol of the fidelity to my wife, soon to be the mother of my child, was now lost in the gut of an uncatchable fish. I followed that fish up-river and down-river for three days and three nights, until I finally had him boxed in. With these two hands, I reached in and snatched that fish out of the river. I looked him straight in the eye. And I made a remarkable discovery. This fish, The Beast. The whole time ~~we were calling it a him~~, when in fact it was a her. It was fat with eggs, and was going to lay them any day. Now, I was in a situation. I could gut that fish and get my ring back, but doing so I would be killing the smartest catfish in the Ashton River, soon to be a mother of a hundred others. Did I want to deprive my soon-to-be-born son the change to catch a fish like this of his own? This lady fish and I, well, we had the same destiny. We were part of the same equation. Now, you may well ask, since this lady fish wasn't the ghost of a thief, why did it strike so quick on gold when nothing else would attract it? That was the lesson I learned that day, the day my son was born. Sometimes, the only way to catch an uncatchable woman is to offer her a wedding ring."

tabisee @ 2008-10-06T21:05:00

2008-10-07T01:17:59Z

Welcome Tabatha Taylor, here is your handwriting analysis.

Tabatha is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Tabatha will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Tabatha an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Tabatha is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Tabatha is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write very large tend to be very social and friendly. It seems Tabatha has this type of writing. This indicates a need for people and a particular natural ability to socialize and be the life of the party. Now, if Tabatha also has specific fears (like fear of criticism or fear of trust) then she will deny she is the life of the party, because fear has overcome her natural inclination to be social. People with large handwriting tend to be effective at anything that requires interaction with lots of people. she is a people person.

When Tabatha expresses an opinion on a issue she will stick to that opinion, and probably will not change her mind. In other words... Tabatha is stubborn. When she is wrong about something that she has decided upon, she will have trouble admitting she is wrong. Changing Tabatha's mind can be very difficult. Once Tabatha makes up her mind, she doesn't want to be confused with the facts!

Tabatha is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past. (HAHA somehwhat true)

Tabatha can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way she is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action.

Tabatha is a cumulative and procedural thinker. She likes to have all the facts before making a decision. She thinks or creates much like a brick mason, stacking fact upon fact. Her thought pattern or the conclusion will not be complete until the last fact is in place. Like that brick wall, Tabatha learns faster through visual demonstration than through quick verbal instructions. Once she has learned new material, and understood it, she won't forget.

Tabatha is a methodical thinker, therefore she is able to build things and come up with new ideas. In an argument, she often loses to rapid thinking people because she is thinking thirty minutes later about what she should have said.(umm soo true) These people often are very booksmart, but can be out-gunned in a rapid fire verbal debate.

She may learn new ideas at a slower pace than other "less detailed" people, but once she gets it, she can handle repetition. Some people hate jobs with too much repetition, she can handle it better than most.

Tabatha is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Tabatha basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Tabatha is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.(yep very true again)

tabisee @ 2007-08-15T02:31:00

2007-08-15T06:35:40Z

Here I am, inspired to write only because I'm pissed off. - Kurt Cobain

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